Happy New Years Eve!

So, today is New Years Eve. Today is kind of a bitter sweet day. I keep thinking about all of my New Years Eves, I've had in the past. This is the first one away from KS/MO in 8 years. Not only that the first New Years Eve that I'm not spending with Janiece or any of my other friends I spent it with. And that I was looking forward to spending it with my new but still close friend(s) Anie (it feels as if, I knew her forever). I love to think back of all the old times but at the same time it makes me sad and miss everyone even more. I can't help but think..."Life would be so much better for me, and other people in my life, if I were just back home". Tonight I'm going to a dance. I'm going to try my very best to have a good time...bc i did spend 25 dollars for a ticket. I hope it is a lot better then the boat dance. The boat dance was fun but toward the end I just wanted to go back to Kansas. I was either with my brother and his girlfriend or just trying to find someone to be with. I'm afraid a little bit that it may be a little similar tonight. But I am going to try to think positive and for one night, not think about how I'd be having more fun, if I were in Kansas/Missouri. I was on the phone with a friend back there and we were talking about how it'd be easier to decide what to do...if i were actually there. Giving someone advice that your close to...and know that you can't be there to make it better, so you have to give them advice on what they should do w/o being there....confusing i know...but it isn't easy. But Life isn't easy. Okay, this is more me ranting bc I haven't blogged in over a week and it needed to be done.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!!!

How many could you answer..just for fun!

1. The love of my life:

2. Where you and I met:

3. Take a stab at my middle name:

4. How long you've known me:

5. When was I born?

6. The last time that we saw each other:

7. Your first impression of me upon meeting me/seeing me:

8. Am I funny?

9. My favorite type of music:

10. Can I sing?

11. The best feature about me:

12. What do I want to do more than anything?

13. What is one thing that you think I should do?

14. Do I have any special talents? If so, what are they?

15. Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?

16. Have you ever hugged me?

17. My favorite food:

18. Have you ever had a crush on me?

19. If there was one good nickname for me, it would be:

20. Your favorite memory of me:

21. Do I have any siblings? how many?

22. If you and I were stranded on a desert island, I would bring:

23. Do I believe in God?

24. Who is my best friend?

25. Will you re-post this so I can fill this out for you?

ABC's Gratitude

I am grateful for:

America
Blessings
Children
Dancing
Extreme Makeover Home Edition
Family
Girlfriends
Happiness
Integrity
Journey's
Kindness
Love
Memories
Nature
Ocean
Photography
Quotes
Road trips
Sharing
Today
Unity
Virtues
Walking
X-mas
You
Zest for life

Tagged.

5 things that you love:
Since it asks for things and not people:
1. I love Laughter!
2. Snow At Christmas time!
3. Sitting next to a fire on a cold day with Hot Chocolate and Christmas movie/music.
4. I love camping.
5. I love to sing and dance. :)


Five things on my to-do list:
1. Find a Job...it's getting old, though.
2. Send a couple post cards.
3. Buy/make a few christmas cards to send out.
4. Call my bank to access my savings account...ugh.
5. Tidy up my room


Five favorite snacks: *just a little obsessed with chocolate*
1. Ice cream
2. Dove chocolate. YUM!
3. Brownies
4. Cup of Hot Chocolate
5. Chocolate oatmeal cookies


Five things you may not know about me:
1. I get scared really easily. -thats an easy one.
2. I cry in almost every movie. ALMOST!
3. I veet my arms - its like nair..but i can't stand nair...veet doesn't smell as bad.
4. I want to travel many places.
5. I want to go to Africa or some place to help little children. with an organization..but don't know where or what organization?


Five quirky things about me:
1. No matter how much I trust the person, I still can't help but get really scared and jumpy in the car with them...bc I'm not the one in control. Sorry, guys. I can't help it!
2. When I was younger I used my saltine crackers as paper...I drew on them and thought it made them taste better. I would do it behind the couch because I would get in trouble if I was caught again. :) hahaha
3. At times, I find myself waking up laughing. Bc of something I've pictured, or something I remember me doing, or just a random thought. lol.
4. When I eat starbursts I have to eat the icky ones first. Orange, Yellow, pink, and then red.
5. When in the process of cleaning my room...it becomes more of a mess then when I started before it gets clean.


Five places i have lived:
1. Natchitoches, Louisiana
2. Casa Grand, Arizona
3. California City, California
4. Leavenworth, Kansas
5. San Diego, California

I got this from Sister Holman's blog. It'd looked fun! :)

This quote got me to thinking!!! :)

Women of God can never be like the women of the world. The world has enough women who are tough; we need women who are tender. There are enough women who are coarse; we need women who are kind. There are enough women who are rude; we need women who are refined. We have enough women of fame and fortune; we need more women of Faith. We have enough greed; we need more goodness. We have enough vanity; we need more Virtue. We have enough popularity; we need more Purity. Margaret D. Nadauld.

That quote, when I read it, makes me want to be a better woman. We as women need to be tender, kind, faithful, we need to be a light to the world. I know I have not become the women I want and know I can be, but we all have something we should work on (some more then others). I know that I can be rude, and I've made A LOT of mistakes. I try not to bring myself down because of it. We (I) just have to remember to strive to be more like Christ. We need to walk away from immortality. We should not cave to worldly things. We must measure our life to Christ. We need to do everything, in our power to become the women we know we can be. :)

My mama, Gabriel, and me!

So, every summer we would go to this area (forgot the name of it) and we would camp for a week. It was always really fun for the family. There was a river more up stream...and we would get our innertubes and we would go done stream with them...kind of like river rafting...haha, jk. See how blonde my natural hair colors was back then? But through out the years it would just get darker and darker...and now i just change the color myself. Maybe, I will let it grow out and see what my natural hair color is now. That will be a surprise I'm sure. Well, tonight we are going caroling for Family Home Evening. That maybe exciting. I do love singing. Well, this is a completely random post. But It was time for me to put something up and I am feeling a little lazy at 11 in the morning. Well, I'll post some other more important news later. :)

San Diego Temple!

This was a great Thanksgiving and something I needed, badly! A few of my best friends (minus a couple) came to visit this past week. It was definately something I needed and helped me out SO much. I didn't take pictures with my camera sadly of all of us...so I just have pictures of the temple and some more from tonight...bc we went and watched the lights turn on at the temple tonight. :) The temple is so beautiful specially at night time! Well, enjoy the pictures...and I hope everyone enjoys them...I will be posting more about my thanksgiving when I get some pictures. :)

One of my fav. shots of the temple!

I thought this was artistic!?

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Now the night time pictures...SO beautiful!

Well, we went pretty much every where. Our week was so packed I can't remember what all we did on which day..i get all mixed up...and tend to leave things out. We went to a different beach though everyday. That was great!

Well, I miss you and love you..you know who you are!

Our Deepest fear isn't that we are Inadequate

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is out light, not out darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you, not to be? You are a child of God. You playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightedned about shrinking, so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God, that it is in everyone. And as we let out own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. * Marrianne Williamson

I was looking through some of my quotes and I came across this one. It all ways reminds me what I should be doing everyday. Which, is letting my light shine, to remember who I am, and why we are here. It makes me want to be better. I have made a lot of mistakes in my short 20 years. And I seem to continue to make the same mistakes and I know we will continue to make mistakes through out our lives. He has all ready atoned (sp?) for our sins. Now, it is just up to us to go to him and to work to be the best we can be to better ourselves and others. Well, that's all I have to say for right now...oh and I'll throw in one RANDOM fact...I sold my car today. So, I am now carless.

When I thought it couldn't get worse...

Friday was a loooooooong day, if I could I'd erase it! to top off my Friday I broke my phone. See I moved here and everything just seemed to go wrong. First, I come home to find that my car doesn't work. Second, I came to find that I do not have a dresser. Third, I am jobless. Fourth, I don't have many friends here. Now FIFTH, my life is my phone, more now then it use to be, because I moved and to stay in contact and as much sane as possible...to talk to them atleast on the phone. So, my weekend did get better but my sore throat got worse. Well, I have no idea when I will get another phone. I'll be sure to let everyone know. But I can give you my house number to get a hold of me.

This is NOT stupid! This is to protect our families!

Today, someone said that Proposition 8 has nothing to do with morals or religion.
That is the most stupid thing, I have ever read.
Prop 8 is protecting tradition marriage. It's protecting our children from being taught in public schools that "same-sex marriage'' is the same as traditional marriage. We should be putting the BEST interests for the children FIRST. Which, is TRADITIONAL marrriage. Having children have the opportunity to be raised by a mother and a father. If it passes, children will be forced to be taught in health and as young as kindergardeners. Also, they will be taught that there is no difference between same sex marriage and traditional marriage. If it is entacted NOTHING will change. Prop 8 is NOT taking any rights away from domestic partnership. You will have ALL the same rights, protections, and benefits, as married spouses. What is not fair? How is it at all fair to us who support Traditional Marriage, if it passes?
This is NOT stupid! This is to protect our families (there is nothing stupid about that)!

October

This is to sum up my October;

Basically, Halloween. That is like the only thing that has happened. I went to a Halloween dance...which is pretty normal, right??? Well, it was a new experience because it was on a boat. It was pretty cool. I had a lot of fun! Stayed up on top with fresh air, even though you didn't have your own "bubble". You were always up on someone. But you know how whenever you go and there are hundreds of people...and you all ways have those certain people you can go to??? Well, I don't have that here. IN Kansas/Missouri....you know how many people I could go and just hang out with??? I do have my brother and his girlfriend and sha at church. And my friend Matt who isn't a member but he has come to church...and has the BOM. It is a work in progress! I miss having those certain people to turn to. You know who you are. :) The boat dance was GREAT fun but when time started winding down, I just got depressed. Looking around wishing, I had those familiar faces there with me. How lame am I??? I know, I have to move on, make new friends. Well, I am trying but the friends that I already have are my BEST friends and nothing could ever replace them. So, there will all ways be that whole missing...for a little while, until we all can see each other on those short visits, when I or they can afford it and have spare time. But I am up for making new friends but it is never the same and I know it won't be. I just have to try harder to open up and be myself and to let everyone know\see the real me. I feel like the people here are to uptight and absorbed with themselves here and very clickish. Like they invite others but they don't really pay any attention to them...just the certain people because they don't want anyone to think it's clickish...because they always talk to us about being unity. They are ALL great people. I am just use to something entirely different. I raised entirely different is why. I just need time. It's like that song; better in time by leona lewis.

Thanksgiving is coming up and a few of my best friends are coming I wish that Anie could be here but I'll see her soon, hopefully. But with them coming...is something I need and I've been longing for. I do know that this move has made me realize how much my friends (the ones who have actually kept in touch with me) mean to me. And how I know that everyone of them will all ways be in my life, forever.

California!

So, I am pretty bad at this updating thing. I'm going to start trying to update mine once a week. Well, the first few weeks here in CA were a little rough...I pretty much disliked it ALOT. Now that I know a few people and I am a little comfortable around them, it has become enjoyable. I've started making a few friends...and I've been on a couple dates already. They were pretty fun..and some really nice guys. So, I'm going to post pictures from Friday. My date and I met up with some people to ice block after we went biking and the beach and walk the pier...and we ate at Joe's Crab Shack. And after ice blocking we went back to his House (his being John, my date for the night).

One of the few girls I talk too.

Lora (laying), then Siri, John, and myself.

the Group...(i only talk to a few of them)

The boys were trying some crazy things!!!

Jesse, Jonathan (Pitt), Eric, John, Ryan behind him, & William.

Great Song!

"My Wish"

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Never thought it would happen!

So, today my family left off to San Diego. It's kind of weird being at the Collin's without Janiece here but I'll get use to it. I will probably heading out the 15th or 16th of August. I'm not exactly sure which day yet. But I'll pretty much have to say bye to most people before the 10th of Aug. because I am going on a camp out with the Collins' one last time. :D That will be Janiece's birthday week too. So, I can't miss that! I packed way more then I realized and I'll probably have to send a box home because my suit case will be way over weight. Well, Janiece will be home on tuesday so I won't be here TOO long without her. ;) later.

I'm at the startin' line of the rest of my life!

I finally had the chance to go to the doctor this past week. I have to change my eating habits. I have to eat 3 means a day and stay away from sugary foods and drink 6-8 cups of water. Oh, and I have to take these alpha base unit pills. He told me that if i didn't change now I could die in a year or just have extremely bad health issues. So, I am glad that I found out now...and that it wasn't anything to serious.

ANYWAYS..................................................................................................................

These next two days are going to be a little busy and hectic. The movers come tomorrow. Yes, for all of you that don't know, my family is moving to California. I have not made my mind up completely yet. But I think I might be going out there mid-august. But in the mean time I'll be staying with my best friend Janiece.

Also, now I'm trying to find someone to cover my shift on Saturday. So, that I can go to the beach party. bc that's only exciting thing happening this week besides tomorrow night. :)

Thoughts of Virtue!

When I first moved here, I didn't really know what "true friends" meant. I was use to having friends that were not of my faith. I all ways felt pressured to do or say things just to "fit in". Now I think back and ask myself, "What is "fitting in?".

We are all different! Not one person on this earth is EXACTLY the same. We all have similarities, which helps us become friends. Moving to the Kansas/Missouri area, changed my life for the better! I learned what "true friends" are and the kind of friend I want to be, to everyone. It wasn't like that at first, either. I was not active in church but my Mother suggested to go to this activity. It was a fun raiser for Girl's Camp. I wasn't excited at all because I wouldn't even be able to attend Girl's Camp that year. I was scared! I remember walking into that room and how I felt was different then I had ever felt before. A few of the Young Women screamed my name and excepted me right away. Which, was completely new to me. I hadn't had a lot of girl friends before. Those girls are still my friends, my best friends. So, I started going to church, but at first it was not for the right reasons. I was going to be with my new friends. With their example, it changed my life. I started going to church for the right reasons. Staying on the right path is not easy. I had those close friends and they were ALL ways there for me. I did stray away from them a few times growing up and fell in with the wrong crowd. But they were there to help me get back onto the right path. True Friends will not let you do anything you don't want too, they won't try to change you, say rude things about you. But they will RESPECT you and your beliefs! And they won't drop you, when you fall, they'll pick you up. Remember to choose friends who accept you for you and don't fall into those that try to change you and your beliefs. Remember you are the light.

Nathaniel and I-he pushed me off the bed so i took him with me.

Dress up in Walmart.-Chekelsky and i


Girls Camp 2007! Miss them.

A collage of friends and family. :)


Jennifer's B-day party. :)


After Chelsey, Roland and my berry fight...:)

Uni and Uni 2 :) (U 'n' I....get it?) Chels and I

Janiece and I. My first friend in LV and first best friend.

Like I said life long friends.

And not only was this back when. I have new amazing friends to top it off with. I love you all! :)