NEW hair!!

So, I got my hair done almost 2 weeks ago now. I love it! It's a little different then what I wanted but my hair wasnt ong enough. But i love my hair anyways. It is more work then i like to do with it but i guess i just cant be lazy. I havent been up to too much just hanging out and looking for a job....still!

been a while...

So, It's been a while since I've updated my blog.

I haven't really been on the computer much for one and then I just don't really have anything to talk about. I'm still searching for a job.

One thing that isn't going so well is family. My older brother has always been one to bring me down and kill self esteem/confidence...and he just attacks me emotionally a lot. Something went down where he really upset me....so I wasnt talking with him. Then I decided well I can say hi and not act as if he doesn't exist so I started saying hi to atleast...then after a text convo that HE started....he said horrible mean things...and then said that m;y little brother agreed and feels the same way....which is bull bc i had hung out with him day before...but any how haven't really talked to any of them since. It's just hard to keep pretending and ignoring the fact that he attacks me emotionally and he doesn't even notice it, and he thinks it is okay to treat someone as such. He always turns it on me...to make me feel like I'm the problem and im the one that is the issue. Any ways that is really the only BIG thing going on right now in my life. A little stressful.

Oh, and my chest pain is back....and I am even more convienced that it's anxiety/stress disorder...being with things going on rght now.....

So, I'm really bad at this updating but I do get around to it. Eventually!

At the end of May I was able to go back home to Kansas for two weeks. YES, TWO WHOLE FREAKING AMAZING WEEKS HOME!!! I really really wanted to stay longer but my brother (Gabriel) got married on the 13th of June. It was beautiful, happy, and sweet. Lucky that I was able to experience that day with them. Back to visiting Kansas. It was a REAL eye opener and something LONG needed. I was able to get focus on what I need to do and want to do. Now I just gotta DO IT! And I really needed out...and I got that. I was able to spend it with amazing people who I love and admire. They are such good examples in my life, that I need. I'm so lucky to have such amazing people in my life. I miss them terribly and wish I was back there already. I'm waiting on this job. It's been a week but they said they were offering me employment and I'm guessing and hoping they are just waiting on all the paper work. The sooner i get a job the sooner I'll be back home.

Since I've been back, the first part of the week, I mean weekend was all about the wedding. Then the rest of the week was all about going places for this job....sunday first interview, monday second interview and tb test, tuesday-physical, wednesday-fingerprints and tb reading. Oh and I also got my California's drivers license. :) Then I was finally able to relax.


I've been back for only 16 days but feel so much longer already. I had a dance friday night (80's) it was fun. The end was more fun then the actual dance. We ate at denny's. The dance wasn't THAT fun...for reasons that I won't say. And yesterday I went to my friends grandma's with her and spent it swimming. :) I gotta a tan, a bit. :) Well I'm going to try and upload some pictures on here from these past few events...

Mind Set

Today, I'm going out to Sister Whipple's. She is going to show me her apartment in their basement. REnt FREE...just babysit whenever possible and feeding farm animals. :) It is an ideal until I can get settled in here with a job when I eventually move back...hopefully in Jan. :) I better get ready...and when my trip is over...I'll have to blog blog blog...about my amazing wonderful trip!

Lately

So, I haven't blogged in a while. First, was because Josh and I had broken up, so I didn't really feel like blogging. Second, I had friends come and visit a week in a half after that (talk about good timing). I really needed that! Third, I have been busy and MY computer's internet isn't working.

I'm still jobless, and looking. I thought I was going to get hired at this place in Rancho San Diego at a Senior resourse group but they put my application on hold. UGH! I could of been in Utah and then heading back to Kansas, IF I had known they weren't going to hire me.

I have been hanging out with a lot of people here or not a lot just a few, really. & I haven't really been happy with my self because I have made some dumb decisions in my life and upset bc I was angry at life. But now I'm just upset with ME! I have a lot to work on....a LOT!

ANYWAYS....pictures of the visit.

bahaha

Dear Josh,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike your eyelashes. I think I realized it when you smacked my butt under the bus and I saw you sit on your 'My Little Pony' collection. I'm sure you're mashocistic enough to understand that I get turned on only by garbage men. I'm returning your toe ring to you, but I'll keep the results of that blood-sample as a memory. You should also know that I hate your cooking and I'm scratching my butt as you read this.

Your everlasting enemy,
Lindsey.





Now it's your turn!Dear (someone you tagged)I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).(12),(Your name)

1) What's the color of your shirt?

• Blue - I'm in love with your cat
• Red - Our affair is over
• White - I’m joining the Convent
• Black -Our romance is over
• Green- Our socks don't match
• Grey - You're a leprechaun
• Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
• Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
• Brown - The mafia wants you
• No shirt - You're mean
• Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?

• January - That night you picked your nose
• February -When I quoted Forest Gump
• March - When your dwarf bit me
• April - When I tripped on peanut butter
• May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
• June - When you put cuffs on me
• July – When you smacked my butt
• August - When I saw the purple monkey
• September - Last year when you peed your pants
• October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
• November - When your dog humped my leg
• December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?

• Tacos - In your apartment
• Chicken- In your car
• Pasta - Outside of your office
• Hamburgers - Under the bus
• Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
• Lasagna - In your closet
• Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
• Fish - In a clown suit
• Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
• Pizza - At the mental hospital
• Hot dog - Under a street light
• Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?

• Yellow - Ignore
• Red - Put whipped cream
• - Hit onBlue - Knock out
• Purple - Pour syrup on
• White - Carve your initials into
• Grey - Pull the clothes off
• Brown - bit of
• Orange - Castrate
• Pink - Pull the pants off of
• Barefoot - Sit on
• Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?

• Black - My boyfriend
• White - My father
• Grey – The Catholic Priest
• Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
• Purple - My corned beef hash
• Red – My knee caps
• Blue - My salt-beef bucket
• Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
• Orange - My Blink 182 cd
• Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
• Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?

• One Tree Hill - Senile
• Heroes- Frostbitten
• Lost - High
• Simpsons- Cowardly
• The news - Scarred
• American Idol - Masochistic
• Family Guy - Open
• Top Model -
• Middle-class
• Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?

• Happy - How awful you are
• Sad - How boring you are
• Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
• Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
• Depressed – That we’re related
• Excited - That I may pee my pants
• Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
• Worried - That your Ford sucks
• Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
• Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
• Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
• Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
• Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?

• White - Your toe ring
• Yellow - Your love letters to me
• Red - The pictures from Vegas
• Black - Your pet rock
• Blue - The couch cushions
• Green - Your car
• Orange - Your false teeth
• Brown - Your Purple thong
• Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
• Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
• Pink - The cut toenails
• Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?

• A/B - My virginity
• C/D - Your photo with the mustache drawn on it
• E/F - Your neighbors dog
• G/H - The oil tank from your car
• I/J - Your left ear
• K/L - The results of that blood-sample
• M/N - Your glass eye
• O/P - My common sense
• Q/R - Your mom
• S/T - Your collection of butterflies
• U/V - Your criminal record
• W/X – Your suicide note
• Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?

• A/B - Love your sweet, sweet Butt
• C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
• E/F -Never will forget that night
• G/H – Will not tell the authorities you stole the whale from the back yard.
• I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
• K/L - Hate your cooking
• M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
• O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
• Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
• S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
• U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
• W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
• Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?

• Wine- Our friendship is ruined
• Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
• Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
• Milk - The apartment building is on fire
• Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
• Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
• Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
• Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
• Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
• Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
• Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
• Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?T

• hailand – Warm tingly sensations
• Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
• France - Love always
• Spain - With tears of sadness
• China – You make me sick
• Germany – Please don’t hurt me
• Japan - Go milk a cow
• Greece - Your everlasting enemy
• USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
• Egypt – Kiss my butt
• Brazil- Don't cry for me

Chocolate Oatmeal Cookies

These are cookies that I have all ways wanted to try to make. So, I found a recipe on the internet because I knew they had to exist. Turned out that my entire family loves them. When I make them, they are gone within a day or two. Then my Mama all ways ends up making them again, a few days later.

• 1 cup All-Purpose Flour




• 3 Tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder




• 1 Teaspoon baking powder




• 1/2 teaspoon of baking soda




• 1/2 Teaspoon salt




• 1/2 Teaspoon ground cinnamon




• 1/2 Cup margarine




• 1/2 Cup Brown Sugar




• 1/2 Cup White sugar




• 1 egg




• 1 Teaspoon of Vanilla Extract




• 1 1/4 Cup oats




• 1/2 Cup of Chocolate Chips

1. Preheat oven to 350 F. Stir together; flour, cocoa, baking powder, baking soda, salt, and cinnamon, in a small bowl. Set aside




2. Larger bowl, cream together the margarine, brown sugar, and white sugar. Beat egg and vanilla.




3. Stir in dry ingridents with wooden spoon.




4. Mix in the oats and chocolate chips.




5. tablespoons on cookie sheets.




6. Bake to 6-8 mins.

I cook them normally for 6 mins and let them cool on the pan. Which cooks it a little more while cooling.

Discusting Blister!

So, I wore High heels all day and then I went for a walk bare foot on pavement....not the best idea because this is what you get...

see the skin that isnt even pulled awy from the foot????

The Difference Between Rich/Poor People

One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.

On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "

It was great, Dad."

"Did you see how poor people live?" The father asked. "

Oh yeah," said the son.

"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" Asked the father.

The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."

The boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have. Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends! Pass this on to friends and family and acquaintances and help them refresh their perspective and appreciation. "Life is too short and friends are too few."

I love this story, I forgot about it until I re-read it today. Well, today I am going on splits with the sister missionaries. The girl we are talking to is feeling good about it right now. Which is good. :) So, we are teaching about the restoration today. Hopefully, she'll except the offer when I invite her to church.

It's all about the quote. :)

Yesterday, I found someone that I had just recently met on facebook. She had a quote in her a little about me box on her profile. Which, read; "Love is a fruit in season at all times. -Mother Teresa". I really like that quote. If you know me, you know that I am really BIG into quotes. I love what this one is saying. It says that no matter what is in season at the time, whether it be clothes, fruit, etc.....that love will never go out of season. So, as much as we are scared and have that fear, it's still there in the back of our minds, and sometimes we don't even notice you do love someone. Well, I am off to get my hair chopped off and colored. Talk to you later. :)

Valentine's Day

So, this is Josh and I, the day we went out to take Gabriel's engagement photo's. Well, I am going to blog about my Valentine's Day. Did you know that this was my first Valentine's Day with a Valentine??? Crazy, isnt' it? Well, we didn't do anything to big. We went to Supercross. At first, I didn't really know what to expect but it was exciting. Before, all of this Josh picked me up at my house, but I wasn't quite finished with Gabriel's cd he was making for Katie (he couldn't for some reason burn it correctly), so Josh patiently waited for me to finish, and then we said our goodbye's to the family. When we were walking out to the car, I was rambling on about who knows what. While he was 0pening the door for me, I just stopped and was surprised to see these beautiful flowers and my favorite chocolate candy (ferrero rondroir) in my seat. I wasn't expecting to get anything, other than the supercross ticket. It was a wonderful surprise and a great gift. The whole day was amazing, except how cold it was, we could see our breath. Josh brought gloves but he let me wear them because he knew my hands would be cold. Not only were my hands freezing but my feetsies were freezing. Josh is so caring and sweet; he took off his socks and put them on my feet. I laughed at him but of course, I said thank you. All and all it was a great day. We had a scare at the end of supercross, but I hope that the man is doing better.

Here are a couple pictures of the flowers;

So pretty, they are on my shelf but they are dying :(

Sorry Anie, I meant to do this earlier but I was out running around with my mother, then when you texted I was out with Gabe. I was trying to help him find some things for his wedding invitations.

Pictures of Gabe's accident

So, as some of you know from previous post that my older brother was in a car accident. Here are some pictures of his car. he is extremely blessed and lucky to be alive. I'm so thankful for our Heavenly Father and that side air bag that was the only thing that saved his life.

Only 2 hours of sleep!

Tonight was so hectic but yet such a blessing. I hadn't gone to bed until 12:30 because I couldn't sleep. But at 2:30am I was woken up by my Mama and I knew that was a little strange. She then told me that my older brother, Gabriel was in a car accident and that he was at the hospital. I looked at my phone and his Fiance had texted me saying that she was worried and was wondering if he was home yet because she couldn't get ahold of him and she had been talking to him. My parents left after finding directions and I was on the phone with Katie who was freaking out because they told her "he isn't ready". I then had to stay awake to take care of the puppy who was born the evening before but not only that I was worrying about my brother. He is currently still in the hospital but should be leaving at any given time. I'm so happy and thankful that he is okay. The doctor said that from the looks of his car and the drivers side hitting a tree dead on...that he was one lucky man to make it out of that alive. I know that our heavenly father was looking out for him and all of his loved ones. He has scratches and bruises, his hands and feet are swollen, bruised lungs, and possibly a broken ribs but they are definately sore. Then I had to wake up my little brother tell him what had happened and make sure I bring him to school. No wonder why little nathan is so afraid of cars and never wanting to cry. Everyone in my family has been involved in an near death car accident. Except him and me, but if i hadn't listened to the spirit it would of been me, instead of my parents who had a much BIGGEr car then me. I'm so thankful for prayer and the protection our Heavenly Father gives us. I love my brother with all of my heart and so so so so thankful, he is okay!

Sneek peak of Gabe's engagement photos!!!

Note: do NOT laugh while eating!

So, today (yesterday, I mean) I all most died, literally. The day was going normal, so to say I went to Andres house for an interview bc I'll be nannying his daughter every Friday. After that I just was waiting around until Josh got off work because we were going to hang out but he had a meeting. I arrived at his apt and then we went to Albertsons to buy food for dinner. The missionaries were coming over to eat with us. Josh made steaks, corn on the cob, and some pasta....I just watched. I didn't want to get in his way! We sat around the table prayed, talked, and laughed. Me being me...I laughed a lot. One point I put steak in my mouth but hadn't chewed it yet but I started to laugh...and then...I started choking. I didn't say anything at first thinking maybe I can get it out...then after that...I was maybe I can wash it down...didn't work. I looked at Josh...and he asked if I was okay...I was shoke my head no. Everyone got up from the table but the missionaries couldn't do anything bc they couldn't touch me, understandable. So, Josh was going to try the hemlich but I walked into the bathroom before he could do anything...so i wouldn't get it on his carpet. He kept trying and trying but it wasn't coming out. I kept trying to cough it up but couldn't. FINALLY I spit it up! My throat is a little sore right now but I'm alive. The rest of the night I kept getting...no laughing when you have food in your mouth, or every five minutes they'd ask I mean Josh would ask..."Are you okay...are you breathing?" It was probably one of the scariest days of my life and I was really embaressed! I'm so thankful that I'm okay and alive. DO NOT LAUGH WHILE EATING!

Sometimes I wish life were easier...

I know that life isn't meant to be easy and that it's suppose to be hard. If it were easy we wouldn't learn anything!! I don't exactly know what to do at every moment of the day or how to go about certain situations but I guess I am learning. These are the type of things we learn throughout life, isn't it?? Sometimes, I wish it were just easier and that we know EXACTLY what to do and how to say how we feel in those situations. Instead of NOT knowing and why we have to hurt people that we care about but thankful for the understanding and the friendship and whatever it may turn out to be in the end. I'm still young and will never stop learning. No one will! It's a never ending cycle. I'm going to stop because I'm rambling on and on and I probably don't even make any sense.