Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.

 Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.

These above are to prove I was born with dark hair....and then below proves that my hair changed to blonde. :)

 

 Above picture here I was 8 and getting baptised.

This was my scavenger hunt 10th birthday party with my niece Kali when she was 1. :)

 I was with a very beautiful baby. haha...and I DID have a tan at some point in my life. :)

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

 One thing I'm insecure about is my skin... I'm REALLLLLY pale. 

 Second thing I'm insecure about is my face. Mainly my smile. I hate my teeth and I feel that my nose looks bigger when I smile. I just feel I have a weird nose and such....

Other things I'm just as insecure about but no pictures is;

* Social environment: I can feel so alone in a group of people. I feel left out and not wanted most the time...it's extremely depressing.

* My Learning disability. I never told anyone really about it. In-fact most people in school I think thought I was really smart. My own brothers had no idea about it...because I never talked about it to anyone. I always kind of measured myself to my brothers. I was never as good as them in school or anything else...even socially...and sometimes with my own family. They all favor my brothers atleast that's how I've felt. I've always felt left out socially and even socially with my family. I could go on and deeper into how I feel but it'd be way too long and it's best kept to myself....but those are some of my insecurities. I'm not that confident I guess you could say.

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life.

I believe my 8th grade graduation...The oldest pic i can find...

I know we all endure hard times in life, and maybe it's not alays a postive or  negative outcome, these times change our path in life. Although, the past few years have been rough for me and I've made some not so good decisions and I may not always feel like a worthy person. But I do know I have people that love me. A place that has the most impact in my life is Kansas...no doubt about it. I made the best and most true friends you could ever imagine. They love me for ME...no judgement. They accepted me from the moment we met. They made me feel wanted and loved. I miss that feeling, not that I don't have them anymore...I DO, it's just different. Sorry, I'm getting all emotional on you. I have quite a few people in my life that have made the biggest impacts. I've mentioned them a lot during this 60 day challenge. I have to say that Janiece has also been a really big impact on me. As soon as I met Janiece there was just something about her that just made me want to be her friend. I didn't know what it was then but I do now. Janiece has helped me come out of my shell. She turned me into a social butterfly. Janiece and I were meant to find each other. I moved to Kansas for a reason and that reason was to meet Janiece but not just her a lot of amazing people that HAVE impacted my life. Janiece is strong, independent, smart, caring, loving, friendly, and she doesn't care what others think about her...she's just HER. She taught me a lot of things. and shaped me into the person I am but the best thing is...she always makes me want to be better. I know I can tell her everything and anything but at the same time I don't always tell her everything right away...because I'm scared too. Because I know that she'd be disappointed in me. I do want her to know that she has been a big impact on me. It's been 10 years- yep almost half of my life...! I feel bad just picking one person because everyone I've mentioned in my challenge has made an impact in my life...and big time. I'm thankful for them and Kansas. If I never came across Janiece, Clare, Anie, Jessica, Chelsey...just to name a few, my life would be VERY different today. They have lifted me up from the lowest points in my life and have helped point me in the right direction. I'm also thankful for the few friends I have here in SD bc if I didn't have them I don't know what I'd do. So, Thank You.