Valentine's Day

So, this is Josh and I, the day we went out to take Gabriel's engagement photo's. Well, I am going to blog about my Valentine's Day. Did you know that this was my first Valentine's Day with a Valentine??? Crazy, isnt' it? Well, we didn't do anything to big. We went to Supercross. At first, I didn't really know what to expect but it was exciting. Before, all of this Josh picked me up at my house, but I wasn't quite finished with Gabriel's cd he was making for Katie (he couldn't for some reason burn it correctly), so Josh patiently waited for me to finish, and then we said our goodbye's to the family. When we were walking out to the car, I was rambling on about who knows what. While he was 0pening the door for me, I just stopped and was surprised to see these beautiful flowers and my favorite chocolate candy (ferrero rondroir) in my seat. I wasn't expecting to get anything, other than the supercross ticket. It was a wonderful surprise and a great gift. The whole day was amazing, except how cold it was, we could see our breath. Josh brought gloves but he let me wear them because he knew my hands would be cold. Not only were my hands freezing but my feetsies were freezing. Josh is so caring and sweet; he took off his socks and put them on my feet. I laughed at him but of course, I said thank you. All and all it was a great day. We had a scare at the end of supercross, but I hope that the man is doing better.

Here are a couple pictures of the flowers;

So pretty, they are on my shelf but they are dying :(

Sorry Anie, I meant to do this earlier but I was out running around with my mother, then when you texted I was out with Gabe. I was trying to help him find some things for his wedding invitations.

Pictures of Gabe's accident

So, as some of you know from previous post that my older brother was in a car accident. Here are some pictures of his car. he is extremely blessed and lucky to be alive. I'm so thankful for our Heavenly Father and that side air bag that was the only thing that saved his life.

Only 2 hours of sleep!

Tonight was so hectic but yet such a blessing. I hadn't gone to bed until 12:30 because I couldn't sleep. But at 2:30am I was woken up by my Mama and I knew that was a little strange. She then told me that my older brother, Gabriel was in a car accident and that he was at the hospital. I looked at my phone and his Fiance had texted me saying that she was worried and was wondering if he was home yet because she couldn't get ahold of him and she had been talking to him. My parents left after finding directions and I was on the phone with Katie who was freaking out because they told her "he isn't ready". I then had to stay awake to take care of the puppy who was born the evening before but not only that I was worrying about my brother. He is currently still in the hospital but should be leaving at any given time. I'm so happy and thankful that he is okay. The doctor said that from the looks of his car and the drivers side hitting a tree dead on...that he was one lucky man to make it out of that alive. I know that our heavenly father was looking out for him and all of his loved ones. He has scratches and bruises, his hands and feet are swollen, bruised lungs, and possibly a broken ribs but they are definately sore. Then I had to wake up my little brother tell him what had happened and make sure I bring him to school. No wonder why little nathan is so afraid of cars and never wanting to cry. Everyone in my family has been involved in an near death car accident. Except him and me, but if i hadn't listened to the spirit it would of been me, instead of my parents who had a much BIGGEr car then me. I'm so thankful for prayer and the protection our Heavenly Father gives us. I love my brother with all of my heart and so so so so thankful, he is okay!

Sneek peak of Gabe's engagement photos!!!

Note: do NOT laugh while eating!

So, today (yesterday, I mean) I all most died, literally. The day was going normal, so to say I went to Andres house for an interview bc I'll be nannying his daughter every Friday. After that I just was waiting around until Josh got off work because we were going to hang out but he had a meeting. I arrived at his apt and then we went to Albertsons to buy food for dinner. The missionaries were coming over to eat with us. Josh made steaks, corn on the cob, and some pasta....I just watched. I didn't want to get in his way! We sat around the table prayed, talked, and laughed. Me being me...I laughed a lot. One point I put steak in my mouth but hadn't chewed it yet but I started to laugh...and then...I started choking. I didn't say anything at first thinking maybe I can get it out...then after that...I was maybe I can wash it down...didn't work. I looked at Josh...and he asked if I was okay...I was shoke my head no. Everyone got up from the table but the missionaries couldn't do anything bc they couldn't touch me, understandable. So, Josh was going to try the hemlich but I walked into the bathroom before he could do anything...so i wouldn't get it on his carpet. He kept trying and trying but it wasn't coming out. I kept trying to cough it up but couldn't. FINALLY I spit it up! My throat is a little sore right now but I'm alive. The rest of the night I kept getting...no laughing when you have food in your mouth, or every five minutes they'd ask I mean Josh would ask..."Are you okay...are you breathing?" It was probably one of the scariest days of my life and I was really embaressed! I'm so thankful that I'm okay and alive. DO NOT LAUGH WHILE EATING!

Sometimes I wish life were easier...

I know that life isn't meant to be easy and that it's suppose to be hard. If it were easy we wouldn't learn anything!! I don't exactly know what to do at every moment of the day or how to go about certain situations but I guess I am learning. These are the type of things we learn throughout life, isn't it?? Sometimes, I wish it were just easier and that we know EXACTLY what to do and how to say how we feel in those situations. Instead of NOT knowing and why we have to hurt people that we care about but thankful for the understanding and the friendship and whatever it may turn out to be in the end. I'm still young and will never stop learning. No one will! It's a never ending cycle. I'm going to stop because I'm rambling on and on and I probably don't even make any sense.

Happy New Years Eve!

So, today is New Years Eve. Today is kind of a bitter sweet day. I keep thinking about all of my New Years Eves, I've had in the past. This is the first one away from KS/MO in 8 years. Not only that the first New Years Eve that I'm not spending with Janiece or any of my other friends I spent it with. And that I was looking forward to spending it with my new but still close friend(s) Anie (it feels as if, I knew her forever). I love to think back of all the old times but at the same time it makes me sad and miss everyone even more. I can't help but think..."Life would be so much better for me, and other people in my life, if I were just back home". Tonight I'm going to a dance. I'm going to try my very best to have a good time...bc i did spend 25 dollars for a ticket. I hope it is a lot better then the boat dance. The boat dance was fun but toward the end I just wanted to go back to Kansas. I was either with my brother and his girlfriend or just trying to find someone to be with. I'm afraid a little bit that it may be a little similar tonight. But I am going to try to think positive and for one night, not think about how I'd be having more fun, if I were in Kansas/Missouri. I was on the phone with a friend back there and we were talking about how it'd be easier to decide what to do...if i were actually there. Giving someone advice that your close to...and know that you can't be there to make it better, so you have to give them advice on what they should do w/o being there....confusing i know...but it isn't easy. But Life isn't easy. Okay, this is more me ranting bc I haven't blogged in over a week and it needed to be done.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!!!