Thanksgiving...

I spent Thanksgiving with my family, of course! We went to my sister in law's families house for dinner. It was a lot of fun and SOOO much yummy food. I don't even think I've ever ate that much on Thanksgiving day EVER. I even had pecan pie for the FIRST time. IT was pretty good. :) The only sad part is we got both Katie's and my family together for a picture. We went through all the trouble of getting people in the right places and the camera....and the picture some how was erased from the card. While I was in the middle of shooting my brother and sister in law...the camera died. :( So, I don't know if we will get everyone together again before they move. They are moving to Boise, Idaho right after christmas. :(
 

Things I am Thankful for;

1. The Gospel- I know that I've messed up. That I stopped going to church and doing things I always told myself I wouldn't. But I never stopped believing and never will. I know that I would be a completely different person without it. And I felt lost everyday that I wasn't there at church.

2. My family- I will mis having everyone in one place. I know that for sure and wish that I didn't take advantage of the time that we were all here in one place.

3. My Friends- I was really blessed to have great friends. I know who my real friends are and that is something I've learned from moving away.
 I am also thankful for the newer friendships that I have and still am gaining. :) Love you all!

4. I am thankful for children. I love my job. I can be having the worst morning/day ever and go into work and all will be better. I love to hear the laughter and smiling.

5. I'm also thankful all the food and drinks.

6. I'm thankful for photography and my camera..well my parents camera ;)

7. I'm thankful for my Comfy bed!!!!!

8. I'm thankful for music.

9. My cell phone so I can keep in touch with family and friends.

10. I'm thankful for PAZOOKIES.....yum. ;)

Halloween



so, left to right. Shelley, Nathaniel, mystery person, me, katie (sisinlaw), gabe, and james all waiting in line for the boat dance.. :)



So It's way past October and almost December. Geez, I can not express how HORRIBLE I am at this updating but I will, I WILL get better.

Halloween was actually really enjoyable this year. Surprising, huh? I went as Lois Lane and once as a secretary. I didn't want to spend money on something I wouldn't wear again. So, I bought an adorable pencil skirt at Goodwill (for 3 dollars I might ad) and a couple cute tops at Ross. My brothers, sister in law, and close family friend all celebrated together on a nice big boat. Yes, we went to a BOAT dance. It was kind of crowded but really awesome. :) I did leave out one person but for good reasons. I was talking to this guy. I will leave it a mistery. I was hanging out with him a lot actually within that month. He was easy to conversate with, and i could be myself. AT frist I thought well maybe....something will work out. Boy was I wrong. He is just one of those guys that want all the attention on themselves and really wants to go make out with random girls he'll never see again. I guess, I am just upset mainly because even after we talked and decided we'd just be friends....he doesn't even contact anymore. So much for that awesome friendship...huh? Oh well, I have plenty of friends. :)

Provo, Utah!

As you can see I went to a wedding while I was in Utah. That is one big reason I decided to go out there. :) It was one of the most beautiful weddings I went too. The Bountiful Temple is so GORGEOUS! I had never seen it before, not even in a picture. Chelsey (my good friend) had a luncheon at this cute little restaurant. They had it reserved and it even said Congrats to Chelsey and Jason Taylor. It was awesome and the food was delicious. Her reception was held in Layton at this mansion like building it was so gorgeous. They were serving ice cream the ENTIRE time. I loved that. :) Another funny thing about her wedding is she used the colors I want to use for my wedding. IT will be different because I'm going to throw in some nutural colors and set up differently. Jason and Chelsey together are so cute and so in love. They smiled the ENTIRE time & they were good sports about all the picture taking. Here are some more little collages I put together of the wedding...before I start talking about the rest of my trip. :)

ISn't her cake beautiful? See the little girl in the blue next to her brother Daniel? That's Jena! I haven't seen her until then. Before then she was only 4 years old. Anyways, poor girl. The night before the wedding she was walking and I guess she had a pencil. She dropped it and ended up some how stepping on it. It got STUCK in her foot. She bent to take it out herself and it broke. Yes, inside of her foot. The night consisted of her screaming and crying. I mean she had her parents digging inside of her foot trying to get the lead and wood out of her foot. She had to be on crutches for the wedding. I tried giving her a piggy back ride at one time...and guess what happened. I flashed everyone my boohonkus. Yep, embaressing!

Another reason I went to Provo was because my best friend Janiece was there. It was her first week of being in Provo. We had so much fun! we drove around ALOT and we got together with those guys you see there. Brandon, Geoffry, and Andrew. WE all graduated the same year...except Geoffry is the odd one out..he went to a different school. But we went to the pool, played card games, and just sat around Janiece's apartment and talked. It's so weird how everyone grew up. I hadn't seen the boys in over 3 years, I think. They were all off on their mission and had only been back for a couple months. It was nice to catch up. Janiece and I shopped, talked, ate, and everything together...once again. :) IT felt so normal being there...and I find myself wishing I never left. It has everything I need and I think it's pretty there. One of my best friends I wish was there. Everytime I drove passed the sign AF...I thought of her and just wished she was there with me. I will have to make a trip or something to see her one of these days. :) Well, that's all for now. :)

Some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength. However, there are times in life in which it takes much more strength to just let go.

I am longing for the kind of life I have had in the past but I can't find it in me to let go. It is my life now and has been for a while now. Sometimes I'm perfectly content with my life (to a point) and other days I'm not content at all. I find myself not being as happy. Altohough, makes it harder when I am remembering the older days. All the laughter and just not caring about my "image" or what others may be thinking. Those careless days were the best and the happiest. Haha, doesn't help that I am pmsing right now and I'm much more emotional then usual. I mean I know I am an emotional person. That's just me.

I was intending to write more but I don't want to go into anything deeper and can't think of anything else to say without saying too much. The quote kind of says it all. MISS Y'ALL MORE THEN yOU knOW!!!!

Lately.

Lately, I haven't been up to much, just work really. At work I get frustrated sometimes now. I think I am going to try harder to find a second job...then I can down size my availbility for the Y and still be able to keep my membership FREE. :) And then also less stress in my life.

Anyway, Friday night I was invited to a girls night. At first I felt a little weird going because I hadn't seen most the girls in SO long and didn't know some. I am really glad I went though. I walked in and they were watching White Chicks. I missed the beginning because I was at work. That movie is pretty funny. After the movie we all just did hair. I taught some girls how to do a few hair dos. :) Forgot how much i like doing hair....now make up too. :( But I really miss my girl friends back home. I miss those fun careless evenings with all of them. It was just so easy to be ME. :) I miss that. Well, I don't have much else to blog about but I was told by one of my dear friends to update my blog (ANIE, ♥ u)...THE END.

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I know, I know, it's been a looong time!

There are a few reasons why I am TERRIBLE at blogging. 1 because my life has been pretty boring or uneventful. 2. I started working at the YMCA and I was working A LOT, but recent months I actually haven't worked as much as I'd like.

And recently life hasn't been uneventful but hasn't been exciting events. But once again, it isn't something to blog about. All I have to say is that things have been really rough. I've been pretty stressed out, and numerous of other emotions. All I know is that things will be okay. I will get through this and every thing that has and will happen will only make me a stronger person.

Also, recently I was able to open up to someone who is the closest person to me in the family. I was able to express how I felt now and as a child. It actually made me feel SO much relief. I had never really shared this with anyone in my immediate family and to actually let it all out just felt so good. What a relief it was on me. Speaking of talking to someone close. I've actually been talking a lot with a close friend back home, as well. She has helped me tremendously, I don't know what I would do without her. We have actually made some plans/goals that I am hoping happen, but I am not entirely sure if it will or not. We will just have to see how everything pans out. :)

Here are lyrics to a song that I have been listening to quite a bit lately. I am normally a quote person and those that know me really well know this but currently this song and music has been a big help. I love this song. If you haven't heard i encourage you to look it up on YouTube and take a listen. :)

Christina Aguilera - The Voice Within Lyrics
Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts
to fall